18 plus some.

Uncertainty. It's extremely difficult. It's hard to simultaneously feel the depths of hurt and relief, while feeling extremely misunderstood. How can something bring so much happiness and completeness and then suddenly transform into utter pain? It forces one to hold on and not be pulled down by the undertow. Holding on can be exhausting and often not that appealing. Regardless of who is at grasp, always keeping my head above water on my own is a challenge.

I will always struggle with living life on life's terms.